in the future, if you ever do come into my life i apologize for all of the inevitable pain and confusion i will put you through. all the fear and stress you will feel, and the anger that comes along with it. i do not mean to hurt anyone, ever. but you have to understand things, because i certainly don’t. the only love i’ve ever really accepted was from my mom. i don’t know how to communicate and show my affection for people in a way that is considered even remotely sane. the things i say may not make sense, but god dammit, i will love the fuck out of you. please just let me love you. and don’t leave me.